Let me start by saying that this post, by no means, is a tutorial of any sort. There’s no how-to guide on getting through the holidays after losing a child. Every single person will find their own way to navigate through these tough times. It’s not easy, and if you’re reading this because you’ve lost a child, I’m sorry. No parent should ever have to experience what the holidays feel like without their child by their side.
It sucks.
There’s simply no other way to put it. I’m definitely not an expert on this topic, but I wanted to share how my family and I got through our first holiday season without my son, Tristan, and how we continue to go on. The holidays can be the most joyous time of the year, the time of the year where your family makes new memories for years to come. But I won’t lie to you, holidays after losing a child will never be the same, but here’s how we try to get through them.
Incorporate them into family traditions
Tristan is still very much a part of our family. We say good morning and goodnight to him every day. His urn goes wherever we go. If we’re going to bed, he comes with us. If we’re spending family time together in the living room, he’s with us. Our family traditions won’t change either. My sweet baby boy made it very clear to us that even though he’s no longer here, he’s still a part of our family and our traditions. During our Christmas photoshoot, he made an appearance. It was only for a second, but you can see a beautiful rainbow in the background of our pictures.
If you’re reading this because you’ve lost a child, I’m sorry. No parent should ever have to experience what the holidays feel like without their child by their side.
Allow yourself to continue to grieve
Grief is a lifelong process. It’s OK to be sad during the holidays. There will be triggers everywhere. Remember to take time out for yourself during the madness to just breathe. If all you do is remember to breathe during the holidays, no one will judge you. Some days we allow ourselves to lay in bed and do nothing but look at pictures of Tristan. Allow yourself to grieve and be sad when that wave of sadness hits. There will be triggers everywhere. Remember to take time out for yourself during the madness to just breathe.
Honor their memory
When Tristan died, we decided that we would honor his memory every chance that we got. One of the new traditions that we’ll be starting this year in honor of Tristan is creating a gift basket for a NICU family. We know all too well what it’s like to spend the holidays, especially Christmas, in the NICU, so we want to create a basket for a family that’s going to be going home just in time for Christmas. We’ll fill it with special things to help make their transition to home easier so that they can focus on making memories at home with their baby instead.
Don’t allow others to dictate how you feel
This one is a biggie for us. Our family is a weird mix. Some of them like to tell us that we shouldn’t cry or be sad. Others like to overly compensate for Tristan’s loss and make their grief seem greater than ours.
The most important thing that I’ve learned about losing a child is that you should never allow others to dictate how you feel. Ignore the ignorance and stupidity of others who have never been in your shoes, and allow yourself to feel everything you need to. Your feelings are yours and yours alone, and they’re valid.
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